2 hours of sleep everyday makes Leslie a zombie.
i tell you.. (ala-mam' sarigumba)
of course you should note that.. (ala dean castillo)
anak mas maganda ka pa din.. (ala mam' constitution)
hahaha let's apply what you have learned in my art class (ala mam' malait)
nakatira ako sa space, gusto mo dumaan? (ala bipolar pt ko sa cavite mental hosp)
Lord, i offer everything to you.. pls guide me. I am so confuse.. if this is really the path that i should take then pls lead me.
After a month of no blogging, i am back at last.. and im back with a new phoney.. yey! i sold my pda to buy this baby..
meet
Choco. my sony ericsson k800i.. it belongs to the family of sony cybershot phones.. a digicam cum mobile, what else can i ask for? ^____^ buti na lang walang pasok tomorrow, i have much time to practice taking pictures..
nga pala, SSC Election was finally over and i won as VP.. (pambihira, akalain mo 'yun? hehe).. now i am really really wondering if i did the right thing to run for a SSC post, my ncm grades are waaaay too low na kaya.. i'm worried sick na i might lose my cum laude chance just for a leadership award.. haaiz.
and lastly, guyz, i'll be joining a photography/painting competition this september (chaired by my very creative arts professor, ms. crisel).. sana manalo ako ng kahit runner up lang.. ^__^
photo taken by lanie lagrimas (dakilang motherhood ko), n73.
ALUMNI HOMECOMING (First Part)
It's really hard to go on living while loving someone secretly, it hurts to see the one you love happy with someone else…
But the most painful thing about hidden love?
It never fades away…..
ALUMNI HOMECOMING
(fiction)
Hay! Ang ginaw naman! Bakit pa kase umulan!? Mas nakakawalang gana tuloy lalo pumunta ng Alumni Homecoming. Kung ako nga lang ang masusunod ayoko talagang pumunta. Sila Ate Lanie lang ang mapilit… Katulad nga ng madalas sabihin ni Ryan, ibabalik lang ng Alumni ang mga memories na ayaw na ayaw mo ng balikan.
"Hello Leslie!"
"Si Lanie 'to. Nasaan ka na? Madami ng tao dito. Bilisan mo at malapit na magsimula!"
"Oo, sige na. Papunta na ko."
"Yang "OO" na yan ha! Siguraduhin mo."
Parang kailan lang nung huli kong pumunta dito. Kailan nga ba yun? Ah, basta, matagal na. Ang daming pagbabago... At ang mahirap, ako na lang ata ang hindi at talagang napag-iiwanan na ng panahon. Dati nagsisiksikan kami tuwing pupunta sa computer shop ni Kuya Mon, pero ngayon hindi na… Pinalakihan na pala 'to. Yung dating opisina ng NSC, malaki na din ang ipinagbago. Dito nga rin pala kami unang naging close 'nun. Ay! Bakit ko pa nga ba inaalala yun?! Kaya nga ayokong pumunta.
"Hoy Ate Lanie!" Tawag ko. "Naks! Ang laki na ng pinagbago mo ah! Ang sexy sexy mo na. Kamusta ka na?" Dagdag ko, sabay tawa.
"Ah? Ako? Hehehe.. Heto, kauuwi ko lang galing Japan. 6 mos. contract."
"ha?! Huminto ka na?" Gulat na gulat na pagkakasabi ko.
"Hahaha! Siyempre joke lang yun! Ano ka ba? Staff nurse kaya ako sa Asian General Hospital, kasama ko sina Tiffany at Ryan." "Ah ganoon ba?"
"Nga pala, may kuwento ko sa'yo. Naalala mo pa ba yung crush na crush ko nung college?", tanong ni Ate Lanie.
"Sino? Si Sir Romy?"
"Oo... Kami na noh! Hindi ko nga ineexpect... Kakatuwa noh? Eh Ikaw?"
"Meron na rin... anak siya ng presidente ng companyang pinapasukan ko"
"Baka naman mukha pa ring insekto yun?!" Sabay tawa. "Pakilala mo naman sa akin minsan..." dugtong ng gaga.
Si Ate Lani… kaklase ko nung 2nd hanggang 4th Year…. Siya madalas ang kasama ko nun, pati na rin sa kalokohan. Nawalan na lang kami ng communication nung maggraduate sa college… Isa sa mga pinakamasayang kasama, walang dull moments sa kanya pero mukhang malaki na rin ang pinagbago ng bruha, hinhin-hinhinan ang drama… Talagang lahat nagbabago… May mga bagay rin na hindi mo inaakalang mangyari... Kahit yung mga bagay at tao na di mo inaakala.
"Leslie, tingnan mo yun, oh."
"Alin?"
"Ayun oh! Si -----! Tingnan mo 'to, nagtatanga-tangahan pa! At mag-isa na naman. Nasaan na kaya yung lagi niyang kasama sa section nila?"
"Ewan. Hayaan mo nga siya"
"Tingnan mo 'to...Wag mong sabihin na may feelings ka pa rin sa impaktong yun?!"
"Wala na… May boyfriend na rin naman ako."
Mukhang wala pa din nagbago sa kanya. Kagagahan lang naman talaga ang paasahin ang sarili sa isang bagay na imposibleng maging sa'yo. Hindi ko lang maalis sa isipan ko, na malaking parte ng buhay ko, ng pag-iisip, ng pagkatao ko ngayon, ang hindi namin pagiging kami.
Siguro hanggang ngayon, hindi nya parin nya alam ang mga toh, at lahat ng mga bagay na ginawa ko na may kinalaman sa kanya. Kahit na hindi man lang niya nalaman na halos sa kanya umikot ang kabuuan ng junior college ko, i am thankful, dahil nagmahal ako ng tulad niya, at sa pagmamahal na yun, marami akong natutunan.
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Naku! Gumagabi na pala. Ako na lang ata tao dito. Masyado naman ata akong nalibang dito… Nga pala, may kuwento pala nung college na may gumagala daw white lady dito tuwing gabi… Uwi na talaga ko!! Kakatakot na dito!
"Hoy! Teka Lesliechan!"
Yung boses. Pamilyar. Ayoko na sanang marinig.
"Kamusta ka na? Baka tatanga-tanga ka pa rin ngayon? Buo pa din ba bahay niyo? Baka nasunog mo na."
Wala akong naisagot.
"Oh? Nabobo ka na rin ba?! Wala ka man lang bang sasabihin? Hindi mo ba ko namiss?"
"Tigilan mo ko, -----. Uwi na ko."
"Eto naman… Hindi pa rin nagbabago… Pikon pa rin… Pero eto sure ako… Mahal mo pa rin ako noh!" Sabay tawa.
"Akala mo lang…Marami ng nagbago... Malaki na ang pinagbago ng Leslie na kilala mo noon. Bahala ka na diyan. Alis na ko."
"Teka… pero ako hindi… Ikaw pa rin ang gusto ko…"
Ano yun?
Bakit kailangan pang bumalik ng mga mapapait na alaala para ipaalam sa'yo na hindi naman pala talaga sila mapait? Bakit napakadaya ng oras? Bakit hindi ko na lang nalaman dati pa? Baka ibang buhay ang nararanasan ko ngayon.
Hindi nga ba? Ganoon talaga. Napakadaling sabihing nagbago ka kahit hindi. Maaari kang ngumiti kahit malungkot ka. Pwede kang magkunwaring bulag basta sabihin mong wala kang nakikita. Sumigaw ka lang at para ka nang galit kahit inaantok ka pa. Nakakaloka ang mga kayang gawin ng tao. Pwedeng hindi ka pinapansin, pero mahal ka rin pala.
It's hard to fall inlove again when you're still attached to your past, you must learn to let go and open your hear to someone else. It's not easy to do but sometimes you just have to....
TO BE CONTINUED.
emo sux sabi ni bez. i don't agree.
You entered: Leslie Lazarte
There are 13 letters in your name.
Those 13 letters total to 55
There are 6 vowels and 7 consonants in your name.
What your first name means:
Scottish Female Dwells at the gray fortress.
Gaelic Female From the gray fortress.
Celtic Female From the gray fortress.
Your number is: 1
The characteristics of #1 are: Initiating action, pioneering, leading, independent, attaining, individual.
The expression or destiny for #1:
A number 1 Expression denotes the skilled executive with keen administrative capabilities. You must develop the capacity to be a fine leader, sales executive, or promoter. You have the tools to become an original person with a creative approach to problem solving, and a penchant for initiating action. Someone may have to follow behind you to handle the details, but you know how to get things going and make things happen. You have a good mind and the ability to use it for your advancement. Because of these factors, you have much potential for achievement and financial rewards. Frequently, this expression belongs to one running a business or striving to achieve a level of accomplishment on ones talents and efforts. You have little need for much supervision, preferring to act on your own with little restraint. You are both ambitious and determined. Self-confident and self-reliant must be yours, as you develop a strong unyielding will and the courage of your convictions.
Although you fear loneliness, you want to be left alone. You fear routine and being in a rut. You often jump the gun because you are afraid of being left behind.
The negative attributes of the 1 Expression are egotism and a self-centered approach to life. This is an aggressive number and if it is over-emphasized it is very hard to live with. You do not have to be overly aggressive to fulfill your destiny. The 1 has a natural instinct to dominate and to be the boss; adhering to the concept of being number One. Again, you do not have to dominate and destroy in order to lead and manage.
Your Soul Urge number is: 8
A Soul Urge number of 8 means:
With an 8 soul urge, you have a natural flair for big business and the challenges imposed by the commercial world. Power, status and success are very important to you. You have strong urges to supervise, organize and lead. Material desires are also very pronounced. You have good executive abilities, and with these, confidence, energy and ambition.
Your mind is analytical and judgment sound; you're a good judge of material values and also human character. Self-controlled, you rarely let emotions cloud judgment. You are somewhat of an organizer at heart, and you like to keep those beneath you organized and on a proper track. This is a personality that wants to lead, not follow. You want to be known for your planning ability and solid judgment.
The negative aspects of the 8 soul urge are the often dominating and exacting attitude. You may have a tendency to be very rigid, sometimes stubborn.
Your Inner Dream number is: 11
An Inner Dream number of 11 means:
You dream of casting the light of illumination; of being the true idealist. You secretly believe there is more to life than we can know or prove, and you would like to be provider of the 'word' from on high.
my multiply buddies are so updated nowadays... especially luwi... hehe luwi, about that sucker blogger who abhors his own native race, i just wanna share my views.. anyway, to help you internalize how much i loath this person, read away:TITLE: SPIDEY IS A WUSS
"Tangina pare! Spiderman 3 was a total disappointment. I've watched it last May 1 and how I wished I stayed home na lang that day than make pila pa along with the natives and orcs at the Mall of Asia. Good thing most of our katutubo store employees were all like nagkakagulo pa to kiss my ass so I asked na lang one of them to buy the ticket for me. So yun na nga diba? That was the first time I sashayed deep into that masa infested mall. Eto ka pare, I just learned lang that day that there's a Calvin Klein store pala at that mall. And it was really lapit lang pala to our boutique! The only dissapointing thing lang about their store pare is that their shopping bag is kinda substandard. The Stores Specialists, Inc. ad and promo head should talk to me to get some pointers on product presentation pare. I'm like really good at that kasi. My dad kasi invited pa Jane Werner from the Fashion Institute of Technology, New York last year to conduct a seminar for our boutique. So diba pare, I learned from the best thats why I'm like a master na rin when it comes to merchandising and retail operations.
So yun na nga diba, going back to the movie pare, I suggest for you to bring a box of tissue paper because the movie was made entirely for crybabies and losers! Tangina pare. Sayang lang my money for that crappy feel good movie. I mean, I think I know better than the creator of that film. I'm a collector kasi of Marvel comic books before and I even have an Xmen 1979 Christmas issue as part of my collection. And the hell talaga pare they did to the Venom character. They made him patay agad that soon! And whats with the flying sand pare? Duh! Sands dont have wings naman diba? So how come they are flying?!!! Shitty plot talaga I tell you. They are talking trash pare. I mean its all about love, forgiveness and other mushy crapolas. Tangina.. I enjoyed pa nga more my granola bar than the movie itself. Eto ka pa pare! I chose pa a seat that was infront of the screen so I was like point blank watching the movie and para walang natives to disturb me while watching. Tapos there are some part pa that they made patawa.. The hell talaga pare.. all the natives was like laughing na.. but not me pare.. HELL NOT ME PARE! I mean, I have good taste dude. And I know a good movie when I see one. And that movie was like tangina talaga. So kakainit ng head. And that Tobey Maguire guy was really irritating. Always trying to make pacute eh he's not even cute pare no. Specially when he made the pacool dance pare. Feeling cool runnings as in! My butthole is waaaaay cuter than him kaya. Really creepy pare I tell you. Good thing talaga I have my box of granola with me or else I'm already dead na pare. Because the movie literally bored me to death. So there."
from: http://cofibean.blogspot.com/
there you have it, just a fraction of his seemingly-utterly-humble entry... how he desperately insulted the filipino and even called the masa "Orcs" pisses me to the core.. i mean, heck, just so you know, ur one of those "orcs" by the way.. diba?! not only that, i prefer if u'd read his other blog entries.. mas mabibigat ang mga salitang sinulat niya againts the class B&C filipino people.. thought let's face it, it's his blog and his own post and besides he never indulge me to visit that horrible site, so what's the point of being aghasted? 
lumalabas ang pagiging "gabriela" ko.. ^^ anyway, kahit na sinong pilipino hindi nanaisin na yurakan ang kanyang sariling lahi na tila ba it o na ang pinakasusurang nationality sa buong mundo... agree? 
